BABIES + BATTLES + BLESSINGS - A glimpse into my family journey.

Babies & Battles & Blessings

I am so lucky to get to take pictures of such wonderful people in all walks and stages of life. This past week and into the weekend I was finishing up two maternity sessions (blogs coming soon) and as the sun was beaming into my office I knew i needed a mental break with my kiddos. As I walked down to our neighborhood park with the kids in tote we met up with some neighbor friends. One girlfriend towards the end of our conversation asked if we were for sure done having babies, its a topic I get asked often and also think of when I edit maternity or birth sessions. Am I done? Am I supposed to know?

If you know anything about my journey or story you may know one of two things. First is that we lost two babies in between Kaimana our son and Ke’ala our daughter. I always knew I wanted 4 children. I thought I would have 4 children before the age of 30 and I would be done. In a way I feel like I got that blessing. Two heavenly babies and two babies here with me on earth. The pain from losing my two other children has been was a trial to get through and something that for sure changed me in many ways.

The second thing you may not know is I suffer from HG or hyperemesis gravidarum. Essentially this is an extreme form of morning sickness where you experience severe nausea and persistent vomiting during most or all of your pregnancy. I threw up and was nauseous with Kaimana for all 40 weeks of my pregnancy and with Ke’ala it eased up at 34 weeks. I was equally as sick with my angel babies up until their passing. If you have never experienced this form nausea or sickness while pregnant or have never been pregnant it honestly feels like you have food poisoning, while also having the flu, while also being hungover. IMAGINE THAT for 30+ weeks and trying to live your normal life. It is something I would never even wish upon my worst enemy and I don’t see myself going through that again with now two kids and my husbands job.

I don’t want to say we are for sure done, but for now we are happy and healthy and blessed and we are just going to roll with that.

XO CHRISTINA